I am often in this position, where no one is seemingly on my
side, or they dispute my pursuit, plans and ‘how I am going about it’. But in the end, they congratulate the
success. Recall these moments and let
the memory of what was encourage my heart to do what I feel convicted to do
today. I don’t run for position or
title, why start now? Or, is my only
alternative to then not be a part of anything because I will have to compete
for title and position or recognition?
Accolades, though nice to receive are very short lived. It is temporary, it is a fix – I want more
than this. I know I am not inferior to
those “super members” of DBC. I may indeed
be lower on the social totem pole, but I do have knowledge and a creative
imaginative spirit unlike theirs. I have
demonstrated this and I know it is clear in every way to anyone who does
matter. Was it a sin or a poor choice
for me to therefore lower myself and work the audio and visual for the
skit? Was it foolish for me to have another teacher introduce the SS presentation while I elected to be an actor in it? Am I making
an unwise decision because I want to incorporate what is already in place such
as drama and dance for Black History month?
But this is what I have done in the past which has garnished me success
and God the full glory. 2 Corinthians 11:5-11 I collaborate and I
am confident in what I can bring and influence, lead, so that I am not insecure
or threatened regarding who I work with. Though, I will never work with a knowingly poor teammate or collaborate with a knowing irresponsible collaborator. Being a leader cannot mean defending a
position or working to prevent someone else from being recognized. [My] Work will always be recognize – I trust
God to defend and honor what I do with my hands, in excellence, that will bring
Him glory. What I do will always be
correctly appropriated – God does not take from the righteous to give to and
reward the unrighteous. If this was to
happen, this would be a lie, of which, the truth will always be made known. I do not feel compelled, at all, to defend
and fight this illusive battle for recognition.
I ask, who is recognizing me? It
would require someone to be looking at me – again, there is no one around me!! So I will keep on doing what I am doing in
order to cut the ground from under those who want an opportunity to be
considered equal with me in the things they boast about. Fully believing, that for such people, deceit
is their tool of choice – they seem sincere and humbled, but they are
masquerading as co-laborers and teammates.
Their end will be what their actions deserve. 2
Corinthians 11:12-15 So don’t get caught up in advice and words, even from
the closest people to me, continue as I am lead, continue as I am
convicted. Their words indeed have the
appearance of wisdom but their words do not solve the issue nor restrain the
indulgence. Avoidance is not resolution and doing it all on my own is just as foolish as deceit – deceiving myself
to believe I can do it all. Instead, all
their advice does is force me to adhere to more rules governed by more
restrictions due to illusive concerns: don’t work with this person; don’t give
up this assignment; do this in this order.
My intent is pure – if I can move in the light of having a clear
conscience with no ulterior motive, I need not hide my objections. Colossians
2:20-23 But I am not fooled – those closest to me are close for a reason
and I will heed their concerns, for they are witnesses to the light. But I do not fear that my season and time
will not come – I so expect it with a heightened faith and a ready spirit,
willing to be who and what I need to be so that God gets all the glory and all
the recognition – for there will be no one on my side who can claim to get even
a small percentage of recognition. For this
is their time, those who fight for recognition, but I was here before, when
there was no need to fight (indulgence) and I will far surpass them when it is
my time to come again. John 1:8,15 The issues that bother
others around me, to the point of fear, do not worry me or concern me like
that, even when I try to make it concern me.
I get frustrated when I try to make such issues become my issue in order
to ‘do something about it’. Understand that the issues of my heart are directly related to what motivates my heart, and the same goes for those closest to me and those I compete against. But,
instead, this day, God told me, like Paul, to keep going and I have decided that “…I will keep
on doing what I am doing in order to cut the ground from under those who want
an opportunity to be considered equal…” 2
Corinthians 11:12
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